Somewhere

Somewhere between the assignments, the group projects, and studying for midterms/exams I missed out.
I missed out on making new friends and keeping the old ones close.
I didn't put in the time or effort in my new and old friends.

Somewhere between the soccer practices, intramurals, and working I lost touch.
I lost touch with those who were important to me.
I figured I would deal with the immediate deadlines and deal with everything else later.

Somewhere between Redeemer hockey, Hockey Night in Canada, and Sunday afternoons at home I forgot.
I forgot who needed me and who was waiting for me to hang out with.
I pushed them aside because I couldn't deal with them -- I couldn't confront them.

Somewhere between the family commitments, going to Tim Horton's, and long calls with friends back home I missed out.
I missed out on getting to know amazing people and building lasting friendships.
I already had my close friends and it was hard to find time for them; I couldn't just ditch them for new friends.

Somewhere between school, sports, hanging out, and family I lost my best friend.
I lost my best friend because I pushed her aside, I didn't put in my half of the relationship -- I avoided the best friend I've ever had.
I thought she replaced me with new friends and I couldn't compete with that.

Somewhere, sometime during the year I lost my best friend.
I lost my best friend and I have no idea how to get her back.

I wish I knew, cause I miss her and want her back.